So now that I am feeling better I am getting back to doing the things that I did before I wasnt feeling so hot.. This morning i get up while the hubby is still sleeping.. and I look around.. He tried he really tried.. I kinda Chuckle to myself at what he attempted to do in housework.. I do have to say though he does wash clothes and will great skill I might add.. but what can I say other than he is married to a organized neat freak.. He works his tail off just to make me happy and so that we can do some of the things that we wanted to do.. I have to say with great love and devotion.. i watched him do laundry the other day and he is tossing clothes into the dryer and into the washer and when it came time for my undies.. he was very careful with them and put them on the delicate cycle.. only the best for his girl.. after they where done washing he put them in the dryer on a gentle drying cycle and then he carefully and gentally folded them....I just wanted to say "they're just underwear.. they wont break" it was the funniest yet most enduring thing to see because for a man who is very much a "man's man" seeing him do this with the upmost care just brought a smile to my face.. i think ill keep him..

So I havent been married that long.. well as long as some of my friends that i talk to on here.. I was over at my moms house the other day.. and yes i have been under a lot of stress with everything that is going on with my life.. and i have been getting upset at the littlest things.. well my husband has been pushing every button possiable on my radar... i just have to remember the vows that i have taken and that it will get batter.. hopefully.. but i look at my mom and mystep dad and i realize that it is not just my husband that pushes my buttons.. but every womans husband presses her buttons from time to time.. and like me im sure they have days that they do not like thier husbands.. i know i do.. it just seems that lately with me not been well like im used to the husband has gotten a lot more touchy feely.. ok now i am a sucker for some cuddling time as much as the next girl.. but when im on the computer, trying to clean, do dishes, laundry, change baby butt.... I DONT NEED TO BE LOVED ON.... but there is more good than bad and for that i thank my gardiuan angels.. cause hey it could be worse.. but for now i just grin and bear it.. and remember what my mom tells me when i come and vent to her.. "just remember you love your husband"

It is the middle of the night and yet here I sit at my computer.. Not wanting to wander to far away from the bathroom in the thought that I may need it in a hurry.. I am waiting patiently for the Doctors office to open so that I may be ble to get a doctors appointment today. I know what the problem is and I can not fix it..And I usually have to wait forever and a day to see my doctor because she is all booked.. I sit and cry from sheer frustration, next to no sleep, and annoyance that I could have kept this from happening.. So goes my day.. Hopefully this will subside to where I dont have to go to the bathroom every 30 seconds and I can get some much needed sleep for at least a few hours.. But I fear that is not the case.. So here I sit.. And wait..

ok so in my blog last week entitled stupid people (please read so you understand whats going on) i was having a major issue with them yet again.. i thought that i had the problem with my bill all straightned out.. NOPE SURE DONT... they call today wanting me to pay my past due bill..WHAT PAST DUE BILL!!! DIDNT WE SOLVE THIS ALREADY!! TWICE!! so tomarrow i am going to the cable company and letting them know that im not happy.. now i can do a good bitch fit on the phone, but in person it is worse.. had this been solved and straightened out i wouldnt have to do it.. so again i have to say

I HATE STUPID PEOPLE!!!!

(here is the blog from last week that i was refering too)
OK so it takes me a lot to have a bitch fit.. but boy did they deserve it. The cable company in the area offers digital cable, high speed internet, and unlimited phone service for 120.00 a month.. not a bad deal... well i called the company to set up service at this house and asked them if i could keep the digital reciever and the cable modem that where already in the house from the other person they said no problem.. great then lets get everything turned on.. on problem number one.. boy that moved out must set up a disconnect for his service before we can transfer yours.. ok no biggy.. disconnect set.. cable and internet hooked up.. yay!!!! i have cable and the net.. now for the phone.. disconnect set for monday.. ok again no problem.. connect set for tuesday... monday night.. at home watching my tv and i cant get any of the movie channels.. hello!!!! i ordeded the movie pack.. so i call again and ask them what is the issue.. come to find out when i asked the girl who set up the service if she needed the serial number off the bottom of the box she said no... ends up THEY NEEDED IT!!! well after that is all done and they have the serial number.. low and behold i get my movie channel.. about freaking time.... well tuesday morning comes around (telephone installation day) phone will be hooked up anywhere from 8 am to 12 pm.. no biggy.. 11:30 am..no guy....12pm...no guy...1:30pm STILL NO GUY!!!! Do we see a pattern here..So i call the company yet again!! Come to find out... THEY NEVER PUT IN THE WORK ORDER!!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!! SOOO...i now have to set up the work order for phone that was SUPPOSED!! to be hooked up that day... Well.. they dont have any appointments until friday.. WTF!! FINE!! I'll take what i can get right...ok friday rolls around.. 9am old boy is here to hook up the phone.. YAY!!!! phone gets hooked up and works.. all right im all good... HA! THAT WOULD BE TO EASY... My guy and I do our daily routine and go pay bills and go the grocery store before we head off to work.. We get back home and what do i see but a thing on my door from the cable company.. (WHOA!! I RHYMED, or how ever the hell you spell that) anyway.... they said they called and left a message that i wasnt home and that they where there to install my phone.. UHHH HELLO YOU ALREADY DID THAT!! So I call the cable company yet again.. I think this is call number 5 with in not even a week.. humm... food for thought... anyway.. they have sent 2 guys out because they messed up and put in two work orders.. DOH!!! Ok so that is all settled and I think im in the clear.. HAHAHAHAHAHA!! FUCK NO...I go online last night (friday night) to view my bill.. $440.95 WHAT!!!! It hasnt even been a week.. Well the cable company said thier hours where 7 am to 12 midnight CST 7 days a week.. ok its friday and it is 11:16pm CST.. I call..i get a message PLEASE CALL BACK DURING BUISNESS HOURS!!!!WHAT THE HELL...So 8 oclock this morning i start calling and calling and calling.. People keep hanging up on when they are checking my account.. I finally just email the damn company only to get this response.. "Your bill is so high because you have not paid your other bill" WHAT OTHER BILL.. I HAVE NEVER BEEN WITH THIS COMPANY.. HELLO!!! (Dork stamp!! i need my dork stamp!!) i explain this to the woman and after another 20 minuets on hold they realize that when i read off the serial number the balance that the guy had where carried over to my account.. fine and dandy BUT I DONT OWE YOU A DIME UNTIL NEXT MONTH AND HELL NO I DONT OWE $440.95. So they tell me no problem we will take off the 300 and some dollars in fees that are on there.. well thank you very much.. JACKASS... any way.. the girl then proceeds to tell me that they are going to disconnect my service on Monday because of an over due bill...HELLO DID WE NOT JUST SETTLE THIS.. IT WAS NOT MY BILL!! So after another 20 minuets of bitching at her for what we just discussed.. she canceled the disconnect... finally everything is back to normal.. AT LEAST UNTIL TOMARROW.. GAAAAHHHHHH!! STUPID PEOPLE..

I know there are the nice guys out there but unfortunatly the assholes out there out weight the nice guys by almost 95 percent..Which really sucks for those fellows who are out there, who want to settle down, and who are tired of trying to prove time and time again to a girl that they are worth it, but because of johnny come lately-dick prick asshole the girl is left gaurding her heart against the hurt and the heart break.

You know how a lot of times the hero portrayed in an movie is a big muscular Fabio looking guy..Well if you want the true ones that will save the day and be heros look for the nice guys..The ones that will put you on a pedestal, let you have your independance, love your for your flaws, your quirks, and your crazyness..They will be the ones to see you when you have no makeup on, your hair is a mess, and your still in your p.j's after being sick for a week with the flu and say "Baby your beautiful"

I have found that the guys that are assholes are the ones that are usually stuck on themselves and think they are god's gift to a woman.

I had a guy and he was not your typical momma's boy he used her for everthing she had, money, to do his laundry, cook his food, transportation, everything, he had no job and smoked, and drank to much and she would sit there holding his hand letting him live at home and say"oh baby it is all right i wont let that big bad world hurt you" FOR THE LOVE OF GOD GET OVER IT. He has to learn sometime that it hurts to fall on your ass but you get up and try it again.. It is called life.Well she always told me that I was never good enough for him, I wasnt a barbie, I would only hurt him.

Well guess what I did hurt him, no im not a barbie, and i was not good enough for him...Why you ask..because I was to good for him, he didnt want a equal, or a girlfriend, he wanted a sex slave a maid to clean up after him while he went out and screwed most of the city. Which by the way he did and now he has a baby..Opppsss..So that is what they invented condoms for. I have one thing to say to that...HAHAHA DUMBASS.

I now am free to live my life and accomplish those dreams that i have had for so long but was not able to do because someone was holding me back.. Well now he can figure out with a girl and 2 kids how to take his hunting, fishing, and vacations, he can figure out how to still race cars and drink with his buddies with some bitch behind him nagging that the kids need something.. HAHA Oh well that is the path he choose not me.. So to my ex the ass that i was with for 4 years..god the light at the end of that tunnel was far...thanks for setting me free..thanks for loving me..all though im sure you didnt, thanks for kickin my ass to the curb to be with her..IT WAS THE BEST THING YOU COULD EVER DO TO ME..THANK YOU.

well back to the nice guys... you guys rock you are the ones that make it all worth it..I know that i was blind for so long like many other women, but please dont lose faith in us girls just yet..we eventually see the light and you guys will be the first ones we run too to help us mend our broken hearts. Well i have ranted long enough..To everyone who reads this.Please believe. :)