First off..Let me tell you that i am not racist what so ever.. if i was i would have to be rasist of my own race cause there are some dumbass white folks too.

All right..I just got done watchin Penn and Teller Bullshit....the subject to night...Reprocussions....the main highlight of tonights show was slavery and the africian americians and how they needed to be paid back for what the white men have done to them..well let me let you in on a little secret....the blacks in africa where the ones that actually started it all. They where the ones that sold and or bartered thier own race to the Europeans for a small fee...if your family didnt like you they sold your ass to a white man...so you wanna be mad at someone be mad at them...and oh yeah that was like back in the 1800's when slavery ended.. so it is now 2006 why the hell bring it up now... why because it is easy to cry wolf and get the attention ..if something happens or someone pisses you off or you fuck up and think it will be easier to blame it on someone of a different race forget yelling racism suck it up and take the blame...slavery is over and done with so GET OVER IT!! Sorry that this is a white based society...wait im not sorry...you dont like it and cant get a long with us then MOVE!!

I hope that i have not offended anyone..i am not racist i just hate stupid people.

Ok so I am sure that many of you have noticed the person in the first spot of my friends list.. His name is Josh and he is the coolest person besides my best frends. He has had a lot of crap thrown at him in the last like 3 month but yet he still manages to crack jokes and take everything in stride...for that i give him kudo's... he has also made me have some what of a thing for him.. I read his rants, or talk to him and i cant help but smile...there is just something about him that no matter how crappy my day has been he can always make it better.. So Josh this is for you.. you make my day no matter how bad things get.. I love ya alot babe!!



Now for my next issue on the list.. My father..or the man who says he's my father. I saw him today he just got divorced for the second time for the same reasons that my mother left him. He is to controling and he has some major issues...boy am i glad i am like my mother....he doesnt want to work and he just mooches off the people around him..he has pissed off his family to the point that they want nothing to do with him... he has also pissed off his friends to where some of them have even changed thier phone numbers...what kind of shit is that.. can we say obsessive...my father was never there for me emotionaly or physically and when i was younger he did a real job on me mentally telling me that i was worthless, ugly, would never amount to anything...and for a freaking long time i believed him.. finally i have told him what he did to me, my mother, my stepmom and my stepsister was uncalled for and unappropriate and that he can burn in hell for all eternity...honestly i dont talk to him, i never call him, and if he was to die i most likely wouldnt give a damn...I am not going to say sorry for being cold hearted twords a man who himself is a coward that he has threatened to take his life so many times and still cant do it.. some day he will want to be the father he never was and when that day comes ill be drinking margerittas on the beach somewhere cause he will be dead....



and lastly the subject yet again of my ex.. saw him today also.. that is a meeting that i could have done without..apparently he saw my page and demanded to know who all these guys where on my friends list and who the guy was that i kept talking about in my rants..when i explained everything to him...which i dont know why i wasted my energy it wasnt even worth it.. he then preceeded to ask me if that me and this guy where dating and if we where how could it be so soon after we split.. HELLO!!! Wherent you the one that told me that you no longer loved me and to get the hell out because you wanted to be with some other woman and now you are telling me that i moved on to fast...lol that is rich.. anyways i am not dating that guy and all though i do like the idea of dating him very much.. for right now there are somethings that i need to concentrate on... but who said i cant be friends with him with the possiability of more.. that would be nice..



well that is plenty for tonigh....i am sure that there will be more everntually....as for Josh..you know i love ya and i hope that everything is ok with what was going on tonight keep me posted..

I am an avid reader of the magazine called Newsweek. They have some great and not so great articals in there but for the most part that keeps me informed of my current events.. anywho... in reading the August 7th issue i read something called The Wedding March and it was about gay marriage in America.. Now I am completly a what i like to call strickly dickly girl, but that does not mean that i dont have friends and aquantiances that are gay.. So I got to thinking and I wrote and artical to Newsweek expressing my view.. Now to see if it gets published.. so for your reading pleasure i give you the artical that i submitted to Newsweek..

Dear Newsweek,

In your August 7th issue I read and artical called (The wedding march) as a straight female with quite a few gay friends, I am saddened to see that unlike so many couples in the U.S. these days, gay couples are still being barred from marrying, instead they have to settle for commitment ceremonies. It is not fair to them. They should have the same rights and privileges as heterosexual couples. Instead because same-sex marriage is frowened upon by most of our nation and the absurd individuals that run it, many gay couples have to forfite decent medical coverage, life insurance coverage, and basically any real comfort in knowing that thier loved ones, regardless of thoer sexual preferance, will be taken care of should something happen to them. They can legally adopt a child and raise them perfectly, so why are they being denied the right to legally marry? I figured that adpoting a child when you are a gay couple would have thrown a red flag in Washington faster than allowing them to rightfully marry.. I just dont understand our close-minded society today or the hypocrits we have elected to run it. After all are we not the country with the motto "ALL MEN(WOMEN) ARE CREATED EQUAL" Now that is what I call a double standard. Just goes to show you sometimes words dont mean a thing. Actions after all do speak louder than words. Give same sex couples the same rights as everyone else. It is only fair.

So there you are.My rant for the evening.. I feel better getting that out of my system.. but rest assured society will give me something else to bitch and complain about soon. They always do.. :)

Sucky Society
Current mood: insomniac

i have 3 blogs that i follow closely.. the first being my friend josh's, then dan's, and then springs (she just started) welcome to the world of bitching springles.

anyway..my friend josh recently wrote about a topic that i would like to touch on...

he recently stated that people are getting lazy and fatter and they need to stop acting handicapped when they are all physically possiable to do what they just dont want to... here in lies (they have mental problems)

we are living in a very much looks and money based society... the more money you have then the better your looks.... i.e. new nose, boobes, butt, ect, ect, ect.. we also live in a very lazy society....cars, scooters, personal chaufers.... the list goes on.. fast food joints make it convient for people on the go...

one thing though the automobile was not invented so that you can eat, read, put makeup on, yell at the kids, talk on the cell phone, or get a manicure while driving...it was created soley to get you from point a to point b and sometimes in the same day to point c... but i digress..

wake up society and give the car a rest... you need something from the corner store..and it is just that on the corner 20 feet from your house do not get in your car... walk... it really wont kill you.. and if you are worried about people staring at you.. chances are they are in a car and lazier than you...get over it....

take the extra time at night to make something for dinner.. i used to nuke everything in the micro until i realized that my weight was not actually going down but it was going up.. i have found that now that i take the time to fix something ( bbq chicken pizza, lasagna, waldorf salad, chicken enchiladas, burritos) what ever i choose to make.. because i took the time to make it by the time it comes around to eating it.. i dont eat as much...and do not go to the grocery store hungry.. you will come home with an entire eisle of food you did not plan on.. go with a list and have a snack before shopping...

stop being lazy, selfish, and just generally sucking society.....

OK so it takes me a lot to have a bitch fit.. but boy did they deserve it. The cable company in the area offers digital cable, high speed internet, and unlimited phone service for 120.00 a month.. not a bad deal... well i called the company to set up service at this house and asked them if i could keep the digital reciever and the cable modem that where already in the house from the other person they said no problem.. great then lets get everything turned on.. on problem number one.. boy that moved out must set up a disconnect for his service before we can transfer yours.. ok no biggy.. disconnect set.. cable and internet hooked up.. yay!!!! i have cable and the net.. now for the phone.. disconnect set for monday.. ok again no problem.. connect set for tuesday... monday night.. at home watching my tv and i cant get any of the movie channels.. hello!!!! i ordeded the movie pack.. so i call again and ask them what is the issue.. come to find out when i asked the girl who set up the service if she needed the serial number off the bottom of the box she said no... ends up THEY NEEDED IT!!! well after that is all done and they have the serial number.. low and behold i get my movie channel.. about freaking time.... well tuesday morning comes around (telephone installation day) phone will be hooked up anywhere from 8 am to 12 pm.. no biggy.. 11:30 am..no guy....12pm...no guy...1:30pm STILL NO GUY!!!! Do we see a pattern here..So i call the company yet again!! Come to find out... THEY NEVER PUT IN THE WORK ORDER!!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!! SOOO...i now have to set up the work order for phone that was SUPPOSED!! to be hooked up that day... Well.. they dont have any appointments until friday.. WTF!! FINE!! I'll take what i can get right...ok friday rolls around.. 9am old boy is here to hook up the phone.. YAY!!!! phone gets hooked up and works.. all right im all good... HA! THAT WOULD BE TO EASY... My guy and I do our daily routine and go pay bills and go the grocery store before we head off to work.. We get back home and what do i see but a thing on my door from the cable company.. (WHOA!! I RHYMED, or how ever the hell you spell that) anyway.... they said they called and left a message that i wasnt home and that they where there to install my phone.. UHHH HELLO YOU ALREADY DID THAT!! So I call the cable company yet again.. I think this is call number 5 with in not even a week.. humm... food for thought... anyway.. they have sent 2 guys out because they messed up and put in two work orders.. DOH!!! Ok so that is all settled and I think im in the clear.. HAHAHAHAHAHA!! FUCK NO...I go online last night (friday night) to view my bill.. $440.95 WHAT!!!! It hasnt even been a week.. Well the cable company said thier hours where 7 am to 12 midnight CST 7 days a week.. ok its friday and it is 11:16pm CST.. I call..i get a message PLEASE CALL BACK DURING BUISNESS HOURS!!!!WHAT THE HELL...So 8 oclock this morning i start calling and calling and calling.. People keep hanging up on when they are checking my account.. I finally just email the damn company only to get this response.. "Your bill is so high because you have not paid your other bill" WHAT OTHER BILL.. I HAVE NEVER BEEN WITH THIS COMPANY.. HELLO!!! (Dork stamp!! i need my dork stamp!!) i explain this to the woman and after another 20 minuets on hold they realize that when i read off the serial number the balance that the guy had where carried over to my account.. fine and dandy BUT I DONT OWE YOU A DIME UNTIL NEXT MONTH AND HELL NO I DONT OWE $440.95. So they tell me no problem we will take off the 300 and some dollars in fees that are on there.. well thank you very much.. JACKASS... any way.. the girl then proceeds to tell me that they are going to disconnect my service on Monday because of an over due bill...HELLO DID WE NOT JUST SETTLE THIS.. IT WAS NOT MY BILL!! So after another 20 minuets of bitching at her for what we just discussed.. she canceled the disconnect... finally everything is back to normal.. AT LEAST UNTIL TOMARROW.. GAAAAHHHHHH!! STUPID PEOPLE..